Saturday, November 29, 2008
This morning, I opened up the newspaper
and couldn't believe the Singaporean hostage in Mumbai was killed.
I just went "huh.. so lame.. die then die lor.. "
and I got a counselling session from my mother..
Apparently, I've grown to become an extreme sadist. =X
Wishing for tomorrow,
my soul shatters.
My wing is broken.
I am no longer able to fly..
like an anchor which sinks into a bottomless dark pit which sees no light.
Sitting in the dark, I can't forget.
Even now, I realise the time I'll never get.
Another story of the bitter pills of fate.
I can't go back again,
I can't turn back again..
The other me is dead, only his voice in my head
only to become a dead memory in my heart.
"I" am dead, so it seems.
heh.
{you are my light}
Friday, November 28, 2008
I can't believe I just knocked out..
It feels as though I've been in a coma, falling asleep for more than 24 hours..
Playing mahjong and bridge with friends the whole night is something I've missed for so long,
tiring,
but fun though.
I also can't believe Yan Ming was correct for the 1st time,
God of War: Chain of Olympus is one of the worst games on psp,
It's boring, gloomy, and way too easy
I find more challenge in playing patapon or something like that..
how disappointing..
I actually felt like a normal human that night..
heh.
{you are my light}
Sunday, November 23, 2008
I wondered how those people in renewal could laugh at almost anything,
each one of them having a cheerful disposition, while I just sat there emotion-less,
Trying to figure out how it's like to be happy, to laugh with them again..
It seems like a big mystery to me.
I realised I'm no longer the person I used to be.
It seems I have extreme difficulty laughing out loud,
difficulty trusting anyone,
difficulty understanding emotions.
It looks like I've lost my soul after all.
What's happening to me.. ?
My optimism has faded,
My goals and dreams have disappeared.
Maybe I've just lost interest in life ..Labels: A new 'me'
{you are my light}