take all of me:

Sebastian

Call me crazy,
Call me mad.
Call me whatever,
I don't really care
This is my paradise,
this is my voice
And if you're kind,
don't deprive me of my choice
I need to express,
so please don't make me suppress
There's always this little red cross
at the top of your screen
Do feel free to click it if you think I'm mean
Because honestly, this is me
And I am free
To do whatever I wish! :D

You were warned.. :P

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Saturday, December 27, 2008

Today was graduation day.
Promotion from teens to youth,
*the older generation group*

a day filled with mixed emotions..
joy, sad and even to some extent, relief.

today just reminded me that I was growing up pretty fast..
when I was p6, I would sit in one corner watching my seniors operate, preparing for worship.
I never dreamt that I'd become an older teen in church then.
As pictures of my sec 4 cell flashed before my eyes,
I realised that the camera is not only a great invention, it is also a very powerful tool.
It has the power to

no 1. stop time

the camera can capture anything at a specific time, date and even place.
Freezing even time itself at that particular moment..
year 2008 may have passed extremely fast,
but the pictures taken this year makes this year feel like forever..
people change but memories don't and the camera catches every possible moment

no 2. steal emotions from people

the camera is a nasty tool that steals a part of someone when a picture is taken, even emotions.
the camera can display the emotions of someone at that moment. whether a person is happy, sad or excited. Nothing escapes the camera's onslaught.

no 3. make someone remember the past

no matter how forgetful you are, just by looking at a picture of yourself taken in the past.
memories of the past will just flood your mind, and it enables even the most forgetful of the forgetful remember.

which is why cam whorers have the most powerful tool on earth,
it captures a person totally, frozen in time, and every detail and emotion is caught along with it.

I wonder what next year has in stall for me..
this year was fun but next year will be better!
haha xD

{you are my light}

Friday, December 26, 2008

In just less than a week, it's gonna be another new year..

Oh how time flies.

23rd dec

watched the movie ''twilight''

and omg, it's so boring that I feel asleep.

only one other movie has made me acheive that status

and that is ''madagascar'', the super lame shit..

24th dec

went to my cousin's house and dragged say yin along with me as well haha xD

sian at first but got better as we played dai dee with yuen man and yuen ping..

but got worse when we attempted to RE-teach them bridge.. =.="

..felt a taste of hell that day.. =X

*ahem, viwawa lvl 17-19 wor.. *

25th dec

christmas day! went to church with yb and say yin to watch some performances then went home and I attempted once more to beat the urgent HR8-9 quest "The jungle assassin :hunt the naruga"

this black looking thing..

heh, still cannot..

Also got the game dissidia :final fantasy recommended by my cousin..

but its all in Japanese, couldn't understand a single thing..

maybe I'll get the eng patch or something.. the game looks damn cool! xD

today

I'm in hell again.. my splitting headaches just won't let me off..

doc said I was fine, so why are they still coming back??

ugghhh!! stupid headaches!

tomorrow is the last teens service of the year, and I'm supposed to play drums for worship but I don't feel like it.. =(

I'm a lazy fat ass! xD

{you are my light}

Monday, December 15, 2008

Watched Bolt from Disney.

Today's a real bad day,
I seem to be having negative thoughts wherever I go today..
And I couldn't believe I could actually tear when watching bolt..

there was this scene,
penny lost her dog, bolt, and starts to cry to her mum.

penny: Oh I've missed him so much!
mum: I know honey, but he's not coming back, you have to move on with life..

for some f***ing reason, I was reminded of my unsightly past
reminded of the time where ''she'' used to tell me she missed me,
and I was just helpless, unable to do anything..
but would smile secretly in my heart because I was in love,
and then I'd start to miss her too..

I really missed that feeling..
That sweet, heartwarming,
pure and innocent feeling called love.

A feeling I've lost and forgetten for so long...

these ''emo'' seizures better have a cure,
since my psp analog stick died on me.. and is awaiting repairs..
boredom is bringing out the negativity in me.. D:

{you are my light}

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

falling ill again really sucks..
I'm done eating porridge and spamming panadols..
I better get well soon..

{you are my light}