Sebastian
Call me crazy,
Call me mad.
Call me whatever,
I don't really care
This is my paradise,
this is my voice
And if you're kind,
don't deprive me of my choice
I need to express,
so please don't make me suppress
There's always this little red cross
at the top of your screen
Do feel free to click it if you think I'm mean
Because honestly, this is me
And I am free
To do whatever I wish! :D
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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Exams.. ..! Today was the Econs paper.. and I think I was really asking for it. I didn't study much..
Looks like I really need a miracle to pass my Econs paper.
I shouldn't have ''studied'' with Yong Siang in the morning.. I was never the open mugger to begin with. I belong to the closet mugger category.
Wasted the morning with him.. He really cannot shut up... =.= ..
Anyways, although I couldn't study Econs yesterday due to AYG. I still think it was worth it, it's really exciting and enjoyable to be part of it. :)
and I don't mind failing Econs for this rare and golden opportunity..
SO SHINY RIGHT?? =)
Ok, it's blur I know.. but that's what's happening on top.
Two girls are touching some silver SHINY orb..
Backstage not nice de.. =(
But still, it's very SHINY right? =)
This performance was about the ocean, the blue cloths were supposed to imitate waves. Quite cool.
Me and Alice.
The parade of Athletes. The final "performance" where the athletes just come out on Stage and everyone enters the ''high TTM'' mode.
It was really fun. haha
Thank God for the wonderful experience.. okay, time to study lit!
I
don't want to fail!!
{you are my light}
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Mid years examtomorrow is my H2 history paper.
I don't think I can pass it.. considering the time I spent on it..
But none the less, I shall just try my best and let God do the rest.
haha xD
God, if you meant for me to fail history, then go ahead bah.
I totally dislike my history teacher anyways. =X
{you are my light}
Saturday, June 27, 2009
So tired..I am really really tired after standing there holding the flag for so long.
Still, the atmosphere in the indoor stadium is really wonderful.
I'm glad to be involved in this year's AYG opening ceremony,
it's probably the only chance and opportunity I'll ever have in my entire life.
So, it's worth it! :)
Amen for the very valuable lesson I've learnt today.
Regarding wisdom, patience, and how to handle temptations..
"The Lord is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in him, and I am helped" Psalms 28:7
I am 17 years old.
I want to play and enjoy my life, and also do well for major exams.
My life now shouldn't be stressful and depressing.
If life's not fun, what's the point of living?
I have grown weary of the emotional ''blackmail''..
I want a new life! =)
I entrust my life with you, Lord and I know I am helped :D
{you are my light}
Friday, June 26, 2009
Camp photos! My group Gideon!! haha =)
I realised my expression always the same de... =.=
Okay, at least the last night of the camp during the skit, I had more expression on my face. haha xD
I do miss camp.. It was really fun I miss that unforgettable experience when God touched my heart. =)
{you are my light}
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Ding Tai Fengwent to Bishan's Coffee Bean today to study, it was rather productive. I guess.
Studied around 4 hours.. Then went to Ding Tai Feng to eat dinner. My first time eating there! x)
I liked the food there, especially the fried rice!!! LOL
the egg in the rice is so rich and addictive! :D
I'm still crazy over eggs.. haha xD
:) I love Dim Sum! xD
haha
"Act young" mother
"Act retarded" sister
"Act cute" me. =X
"Act young" mother
"Act retarded" sister
"Act cute" me. =X....
okay, I know not funny..
I really enjoyed today although I didn't do much. I'm finally at peace. =)
I really enjoyed today although I didn't do much. I'm finally at peace. =)
Thank you, God.
"Great peace have they who love your law." Psalms 119:165
{you are my light}
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Transformers : Revenge of the fallenWatched transformers movie today :)
It's really awesome, the graphics... Wow!
=)
Although I had much trouble recognising what's going.
I enjoyed the movie a lot :)
It's much better than the first one =)
I'm having a bad headache now God.. please grant me peace.. I need it .. :(
{you are my light}
Today was the 1st training for the Asian Youth Games march. 45 girls and 45 guys have been ''chosen'' to represent various nations to carry their flags and placards.
It was said to be a VERY IMPORTANT role, and each of us would get 10 seconds of fame on tv live for the whole world to see on 29th June. LOL
Whatever. I have to sacrifice my hair length and colour for that 10 seconds!!! It's SO NOT worth it!!
Whatever. I have to sacrifice my hair length and colour for that 10 seconds!!! It's SO NOT worth it!!
But still, it was fun and exciting to be part of this event although I have to sacrifice A LOT. Time.. Time.. TIME.. and more precious TIME will have to be spent!!!!
Oh well, I believe God will return me back the time I've lost somehow (:
but I don't know how.. haha
I am the flag bearer of the Syrian Arab Republic, while Alice, my partner is the placard holder.
This is the flag of that country.
She's so funny, kept entertaining me the whole day with her lame jokes..
It's amazing how she managed to still be together with her first love for 3 years, even til now..
hmmmm... :(
Anyways, This is how the stage looks like :)
So cute! haha xD
backstage, looks like some circus though..
I was so fascinated by the light's design. I had to take a photo of it..
cuz its VERY shiny. xD
Then rushed down to prayer meeting, just in time to hear my dad "embarrass" me in front of the whole church.. =.=
okay fine.. I have a very emotional father.. hahaha
God.. it's still there.. :(
But I will not be shaken, for we live by faith, not by sight. I know you'll pick me up when I fall.
I believe in miracles!! =)
{you are my light}
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
study study study..I studied for like near 6 hours today, wow..
My head hurts so bad, eyes so dry... zzz..
but at least I thought it was productive today. Managed to digest TONS of information.
Im feeling more confident about my E lit paper already ;D
Thank you Sihui for handing down the notes, they're really life saving.
Thank you, God for giving me those notes through Sihui :D
I saw a stray cat just now and it looked so pitiful, I fed it with my french fries I bought from Burger King.
I've never seen a cat eat fries until today. It was so hungry and desperate..
I'm so glad I met this cat and fed it.
Thank you God for leading me to this poor cat, so that it can get some food, though isn't much but at least it won't starve for one night. Maybe you can hear prayers made by Animals too?
haha xD
okay, its late.. I'm not normal at night.. =x
{you are my light}
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Confessions 18-20th June
Went for Phillip Mantofa ,One love conference from 18-20th june. It was really inspiring.
His preaching was humourous and straight to the point. I really liked that place. :)
But i do confess that it was quite hard to keep awake, with the nice air-conditioned atmosphere and comfortable seats.. I even had to draw Kai Shan for fun to prevent my eyelids from falling.
xD KaiShan, see this! *points up*
I also enjoyed One Love got Talent. I really regretted not joining the Hand mime this time round. They were really awesome, we should've gotten first instead of that "lion king and his scissors sisters". Even the "when you believe" girl was better la!
I really heard God's voice and felt the holy spirit in the final night.
I was praying so hard and God dug up all my past events..
Framing my maid..
Bitterness of past relationships..
Stress in School work..
I cried and cried.. I confessed all of my sins, hoping that God will forgive me.
My past was so unsightly and disgusting but still, God accepted me for who I am.. I felt this very warm feeling in my heart, when I was slain.
I knew I was forgiven.. Despite hurting others around me, treating my loved ones so unjust, even neglecting my family. He healed the emotional scars and wounds nobody could ever have healed for me.. My heart was stained but Jesus came in, and made it pure once more.
God, you're amazing.
You have proven to me that miracles are possible..
During the church camp, I wasn't able to water the plants.. As a result, one of them couldn't survived, it withered and died..
Dead plant
I was so depressed when I got back from camp. My parents entrusted me with the watering of plants. I had let them down.. However, with God around, nothing is impossible!
The dead plant miraculously showed signs of revival. It managed to re-grow out of nowhere! There wasn't any seeds planted, and I didn't water it anymore ever since I knew it was dead..
new plant= new life
I guess miracles do exist =)
What's more amazing is that this new plant is totally different from the dead one, it's a different species.
There's no way it could have grown there without the power of God.
it looks like this now. So pretty :)
This is confirmation that God exists and he can do the impossible. :)
21st June
Went for service today. God spoke to me again. To re-watch the video, called the bridge. It was his message to me..
The video shows a stationmaster who has a son, and he loves him dearly. One day However, he was forced to make a fatal choice when he made a tragic mistake. A choice that will affect him for life..
I guess God wanted to tell me that sacrificing the ones you love most, will save the life of others.. Just that you don't know how and it's all in God's plan.
God, my heart is aching now.. I will honour your name and I know you will perform miracles in my life. =)
{you are my light}
Monday, June 15, 2009
Encounter & Experience the Epiphany12th to 15th june.
I went to church camp, and it was so different from all the other camps I've been to in my entire life. The first camp I've enjoyed fully, to be exact. =)
I still remember, the first day I entered the site.. I was carrying this ''very very sian'' attitude. I was playing psp all the way, didn't bother saying Hi to anyone, let alone socialising. Then when i saw that my name card is in red, while most of the other people were in black.. I knew I was going to be group leader.. And I was so "ugh!" =(
Then when I saw my group.. whoa.. I didnt even know the smaller teens, not even a single one. o.o..
Thankfully Michelle was also the other group leader, or else I'd have died.
I really experienced God in this camp.
Yes, games were fun but it was the precious time I spent with God, the words he said to me that made me miss this camp so much.
I had this question in my head the whole time,
"what is the purpose of my life?"
thank God, now I know the answer.
Nothing is impossible with God, if we place focus on him, he will do the rest. He said ''Do not fear'' in the bible 365 different times, whatever we do is not about us, it is to honour God. He will never let us down.
I have yet to unleash my full potential.
My fear has gone, fear of being alone, fear of rejection.. all GONE.
God , thank you.
I Hand over my life to you. I want to do crazy things for you, be a potential influence for others through my positivity and be a blessing to others. :)
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future -Jeremiah 29:11(NIV)
pictures coming soon.. xD
{you are my light}
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
nyco chaletWent for NYCO chalet in east coast costa sands yesterday.
It was quite fun ;D
and we managed to cycle to Changi Village from east coast..
It's really quite far. It was well.. good exercise for me? haha :D
the whole night cycling journey was filled with much uncertainty and many obstacles.
But we still managed to pull through.
It felt just like how i used to climb mountains in the past.. the sense of accomplishment and satisfaction after completing so many difficulties is priceless :p
play mahjong and bridge..
pohyih called me bridge king, du shen.
and deanna was mahjong queen, du hou.
LOL
anyways, back to reality..
I have much hmk that needs to be done, lit scene summary.. econs.. hist.. maths.. rawr!
and project work..
and to make things worse, my parents left for Israel today.
which means i have to take care of my sis and the whole house.. zzz.. i hate doing housework.
Tsk!
on the bright side, my leg IS HEALED xD
{you are my light}
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
I have found my smile again xDAfter so many days of silent suffering, of regret, hurt and guilt.
I finally managed to find back that very special and important part of me once again which i thought was long gone.
I guess my heart doesn't listen to words, it listens to my feelings. =)
{you are my light}