Saturday, April 10, 2010
I am happy!
I think out of all my recent blog posts..
I don't think there is really a single one entry that shows me actually expressing my joy and happiness. I don't know why, but I'm feeling blessed today.. Truly blessed.
I always believe that everything happens for a reason, and whatever comes into my life, has a purpose. Just like a play, every action, every speech holds an importance to the entire play. I think every event that has happened, or every single person who touched my life is not a coincidence, nor is it a 'mistake'.
I think I should give thanks. I'm always ranting, complaining about life and entering into states of parochialism. So today, I'll start afresh!
maybe simply because love is so strong, it stands above all.
And it has healed my heart..
I want to give thanks to God
for..
1) Allowing me to still have miraculous grades (to me) even though I slacked so much
2) Giving me the assurance when I needed it
3) For blessing me with such a great family! xD
I want to give thanks for my church cell members, especially Sihui,
for..
1) Taking time out of your busy schedule to pray for me
2) Spending time talking to me regarding life issues
3) Making that effort to console me, to affirm me :)
I want to give thanks for my friends in school
for..
1) Being sensitive to my 'emo' moments
2) Giving me comfort as and when I needed it
3) Not leaving me in the lurch :D
and I want to give thanks to you.
I know you want to find out what's real and what's not.
Everything's real.
of course look at it, in a non-dirty way la!
That night, I really poured everything out.. Well, the main gist of it.. My life isn't filled with that much sorrow la.. haha
I really felt that I was accepted, and you really made me feel much better than night. I truly felt more relaxed (not dirty way of course..)
I have been holding on so tightly, defending so fiercely, almost like to guard myself from the dangers of this world.. I was always in doubt, of other people, of myself..
But thanks to you, I learnt how to trust once more. You may not know, but I really felt my heart ache so badly when I saw you in school.. It got worse when I witnessed you crying and sobbing so uncontrollably. Not just because of guilt, but also because I was powerless to do anything.. Literally, there was nothing I could do. Here I went blabbering on about how I would protect you, but I gave you pain instead. I failed to guard your heart.. You're important to me. So don't cry already okay!
Too bad Kanon was down today.. I wanted to watch it with you. haha oh wells, there's always another time right? =)
Til then, take care!! xD
yay! Happy today!
{you are my light}