Bring down the giants of your life!
He vies for the bedside position, hoping to be the first voice you hear. He covets your waking thoughts, those early, pillow born emotions. He inserts words of worry, stirs you with thoughts of stress. If you dread the day before it even begins, that giant has already taken the lead.
Without a doubt, there are so many super-sized challenges across the globe.. Challenges that swagger and strut, pilfer sleep and embezzle peace and liposuction joy out of our lives.
Will these giants gain control and force us to kneel and cower before them?
In my case,
I think my life is a miracle. It has been, and it will continue to be.
I know my past is filled with endless darkness but I've learnt how to walk out of bad memories and to always remember the good memories; memories of my freedom, my rebirth.
There are times I've fallen to the giants, times where the giants fall..
From today, I'm going to write down my worries in sand, chisel yesterday's victories in stone.
Anything written in sand won't last as it will only cease to be washed away by waves. On the other hand, stone is not temporal, but absolute. It's tough and robust, not easily shaken nor easily broken.
I want to make sure I remember the positive things I've done, not avoiding my troubles but conquering them.
No more embracing of darkness, no more pessimism. I shall not allow the negativity to take out the light in my eyes, the passionate flame that burns in my heart. From this instant, I am going to take down my Goliath!
To someone:
hey, I'm not sure if I'm thinking too much but I think there's something bothering you. If there really is, don't hide it from me alright? You know it'll make me worried. Perhaps it's because of the reading of my 2 years worth of blog posts? Perhaps it's some romance drama that makes you emo? Or is it something else that denies you of your smile? Then again, like you said.. I may be wrong and overthinking too much. I hope I am, because you mean so much to me and I can't bear to see you sad..
Someone asked me 'how's she like?'
Honestly, I didn't give a cohesive answer partly because I wasn't prepared and didn't expect it. I'm sorry because I should have given a better answer and I know you deserve greater credit. You're not only sensitive and humorous, you're also forgiving and so very kind. You're intelligent, sweet and honest..
There's a reason why I remember 90% of the words you say,
there's a reason why I can't help but stare at your eyes and smile to myself, there's a reason why I can feel so happy admist all the weariness and fatigue life constantly presents to me.
It doesn't matter what your character is, I want to love you for not only the parts that are lovable, but also the non-lovable sides of you.
You said your heart will ache when you see me getting headaches, my heart aches too when I know you're troubled or bothered and I'm powerless to do anything. I don't want you to fall into darkness. You gave me courage to move on, so how can I just watch you plunge headfirst into danger, walking unto a path that shouldn't be walked on?
Like you said, the Lord is watching above us and things will start to look up for you. I want to be part of that, I want to be the first one to witness you soar up high. I'm not sure if you're willing, but will you accept me for who I am? Be it 'chain girls' or not? You're not a cheap substitute or a replacement of any kind, you have a special place in my heart.
It's right here, if you're willing to take it.
I'm all yours.. :D