No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

Then I'll follow you into the dark

Do you know? That's the feeling I get from you everytime you bring me out of this pathetic misery.. It's as though you are unafraid to walk with me into darkness, be it self-inflicted or not. Your fearless love for me is something I'll remember. Always. :D
Thank you God for giving me such a tolerant and forgiving girl,
And thank you for knocking some sense into me, letting me realise how stupid and ignorant I've been these few days. I didn't fully appreciate your presence, you being there for me. In times of illnesses and in times of embarrassment and awkwardness. Thank you for sharing these precious moments with me.



Haha, remember all the tissues we've used..
When I was sick, you were there.



haha, cui faces!
When I needed support, you were there.

haha, chibi gaylen!! :D
When I was fixing my gundams (even though you don't like them..), you were there.



haha, your fringe was always split.. :D
When I needed a smile, some joy and blithe in my life, you were there.

Thank you, really.
You're bringing a great positive change within me. You don't know how much an impact you've made on me dear (:

Anyways,
Watched 'Devil' today, and it was another M. Night Shyamalan production. And as usual, his shows often have this weird twists and as Eunice strongly suggests, I think he is crazy too. A whacky genius that produce shows with dichotomous and polemical effects, either awesome, or totally thumbs down.
Guess the 'Devil' was a good watch :D It greatly aided in removing tensions before our invective and vituperative ructions before the show.
The film really made us more relaxed compared to before we entered the cinema. I promise k? One day, I'll do whatever you want to do. Instead of just following me around to do what I like. After the movie, we headed out to Daiso, and bought swimming gear and exercising stuff! Both of us agreed to go out and get tanned, get abs back, and lead healthy lives. :D

And because of this, I am proud to say: I finally got my ass into a swimming pool!! I touched water with chlorine after 2 years! :D
It feels so divine to smell a mixture or chlorine and urine well coalesced into your skin. Coupled with the feeling of diving underwater, far away from harsh realities of this world, it is simply- for a lack of a better word, ass-kicking :D
It's been years since I felt water flooding into my ears, and also the feeling of just staying afloat, emptied of all stress and languorous emotions. Simply wonderful. I feel so rejuvenated and revived after so long!
Really happy day for me, though there were mixed and ambivalent emotions throughout..
Someone told me Happiness is a choice, well more like enforcing my words.. But she asked this thought provoking question. "What's your picture of happiness?"
The moment she asked me that, I knew I didn't have an answer. BUT dear,

Now I have the answer.
My picture of happiness is this. This notion of being able to hold your hand and feel loved, I realised I always had happiness in front of my very eyes.
I just stupidly pushed it away, denying myself this opportunity, and not partaking in my share of the happiness we both share together.

I choose happiness.
I choose you.


"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." -1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Thank you God.
Tomorrow will be a better day :)