Hiding won't hide it
Smiling won't hide it
Like I ain't tried it
Everyone's tried it now
And failed somehow
So when you gonna let me
When you gonna let me out - Out

And if you know
How do you get up from an all time low
I'm in pieces
Seems like peace is
The only thing I'll never know
How do you get up
From an all time low

Can you hear me?
Can't you hear me?


Without a doubt, left with less than 45 days to the much feared and 'anticipated' A levels.. I must be mad, I thought.
Stressed? Yes.
Scared? Definitely.
I like answering my own questions, I realised. Is that a problem? No.
I've been wondering these days, what is the greatest sin? Believing but not acting out? Passive overcoming the active? Or is it the indulgence of the Seven Deadly Sins- inclusive of the subtle, yet deadly Fear..
What constitutes the greater sinner? I'm just saying.

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Talent

This is the word tightrope. Now imagine
a man, inching across it in the space
between our thoughts. He holds our breath.

There is no word net.

You want him to fall, don't you?
I guessed as much; he teeters but succeeds.
The word applause is written all over him.


-Carol Ann Duffy

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Lord, I need you.. You see my inner darkness so please,
Cast out my demon..!
If demons were to have an aura, and each aura a different colour..
I know mine would be black. The darkest of them all, the one that sins the most, and always fears..
even himself.


“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” -Psalms 23:4

.. Are you there?
I'm a lost black sheep filled with sin.
Father.. Will guide me home? I'm sorry.
Will you grant me the faith to move on and allow me to see beyond my narrow, limited 'human' perspectives?

Let me tide through, I beg you...