Thursday, October 08, 2009
How does it feel when everyone around you is fake?
Answer: Watch Surrogates
I had fun yesterday hanging out with Yeow Boon and Marcus, it's been so long since I really went out, where the only reason is just to have fun. I didn't even know amk hub's arcade had the new gundam machine can.. It looked so uber cool and awesome.
Surrogates is really a good movie. It's so scary to know that everyone around you isn't who they are, and everyone's made out of scrap metal and plastic coverings.. o.o
Then again, it isn't so different from this world we live in anyways.. sigh..
I think I'm a really lucky child to have such great parents. God has given me the best parents I could ever wish for. Even if anything happens to me, I know my parents will always have my back and support me in every way possible, and I'll never forget that.
After my paper yesterday, I tried to smile and look happy even though I know my possibility of retaining is very high. I had bottled up my feelings and encapsulated my own emotions, putting on a false front to others, especially my parents, because I didn't want to let them down and disgrace them. A retainee in the family, how shameful! If I were still in MSHS, I'll be a laughing stock for the rest of my life..! Being 'emo' is not something that school tolerates, you're not even 'allowed' to cry in class.
Smile even if it kills you, let no one know your heart because the heart is weak.
That's maris stella for you.
I guess I couldn't fool my parents after all. They saw through my pathetic 'act' and said to me, "If God wants you to retain. It means he has a more awesome and greater plan for you. Everything has a reason. Let us share your burden, don't shoulder everything on yourself. It doesn't make you strong, it makes you look weak. Our strength lies in God. If you're retaining, we're going to be very proud of you, just like how we've always been :) "
*hug*
I love my family, so much (:
So yup, I've decided to take on a less stressful life.
Regardless of how people view me, I don't care.
I have my family and most importantly, my heavenly father.
I will never be judged and even if I fall, my strength comes from them. I will never be alone.
Hence, I shall destroy the surrogate of my life and watch One Piece now. ahhaha
retain then retain LOR!
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{you are my light}