Held on so tightly, this weapon of mine.
Thought if I let go, I'll be weak and powerless..

Guess I got everything all messed up..
Thought I was better off on my own, looks like I was wrong.

I have to let go.

Everything I've fought against was nothing but myself..
Fighting with the inner demons that were self created. I needed no one.
So I thought..
But I felt God talking to me through this anime Konan, as the character Mai, who is a demon slayer and a highly introvert one.
Nobody seems to understand her, she's perceived as a freak and everyone just flees at her presence. Eventually, young Mai learns how to build barriers around her heart, as she accepts her fate and locks herself up. She fights alone, always.

I never knew how much I had hurt others with my actions and words.. Just like Mai, I've shunned the people that are truly concerned about me because I was so stupid and so selfish.. I'm bounded by this darkness, by my shadow..
I was on the verge of losing everything dear to me, everything so precious and valuable.. I was ignorant and foolish..

But today,
I am going to be one step closer to freedom because I deserve to be.
I am going to smile, like how I used to.
I am going to learn how to love once more.

The following is for a special someone:

"USE YOUR UGUU POWER!!"

Thank you too. Because of you, my heavy heart feels lighter. I can feel my pain easing day by day, and it is your care and concern that saved me. I won't destroy everything that we've built together. Those happy times we shared, I shall not erase them. Caring has the power to cure.. I want to protect you just like how you have protected me, I want to make you smile because you made me smile. You are just so important to me, I can't explain it. So dear, thank you for everything! I know that you are someone that I can depend on, seek comfort in even in times of darkness. You'll be right there standing, providing me with light to carry on, always. Thanks for being there whenever I needed you. =)